Life during the first trimester...

Pregnancy does a funny thing to your brain. You somehow forget the awfulness of being pregnant. I think I had heard about the phenomenom before, but I never realized how FAST it happened. (I can imagine many of you laughing at me since I'm JUST entering my second trimester.)


We were at a dinner party the other night, and one of our friends asked me how my first trimester went. I replied, "It was good! It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be."

Tim's head immedietly whipped around. He gave me a flabbergasted look, and exclaimed, "What are you talking about?!? During the whole time you kept saying how AWFUL it was!!!"


Hmmm... is that right? Honestly, I think I feel so much better now, that I've completely forgotten how AWFUL I felt. It reminds me of a time when I was little. I remember eating a TON of ice-cream, and my mom saying, "Don't eat so much! You'll get sick."

Well, I got sick. And I remember that as I sat on the toilet with a throbbing tummy, I prayed in my head, "Heavenly Father, PLEASE make my tummy stop hurting! I promise I won't eat ice-cream EVER again!!!" But, lo and behold, as soon as my pain subsided, back into the freezer I went. I love ice-cream!


So, let me think about it for a sec... okay. Here are some things that I *think* I remember:

1. Getting extremely tired, and HATING the fact that I'd have to wake up in the morning and go to work.


2. Hating work. Wanting to lay under my desk and curl up in a ball.


3. I remember thinking that I would NEVER want to do this again.


4. I remember thinking HOW IN THE WORLD WOULD ANYONE WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY?!?


5. Having a conversation with Tim after Stimpy the Cat died--Tim would rather go through days of feeling nauseated than going through the pain of a loved one dieing. I felt the opposite--I would rather go through the pain of a loved one dieing than to feel the nausea.


6. At one point, I thought I would rather be back on an 18-month mission (out biking and contacting people all day) than in my current state.


7. Feeling sluggish all day long.


8. Getting the feelings of nausea and hunger-pains mixed up... having a hate-hate relationship with food. I'd "need" to eat to feed my body, but I would NOT feel like eating at all. Sometimes I wouldn't even feel like I had an appetite, but my stomach would start hurting like I'd gone too long without eating. I was so sick sick SICK of eating food. PLUS, nothing would ever sound good. For about a week or two, the only things that sounded decent enough to eat were: cookies, chips, and any other junk food I could find for free at work. I'd have to set an alarm on my Outlook to eat something once an hour (sometimes once every 45 minutes).


9. I didn't feel like doing ANYTHING. No eating, no cooking, no cleaning, no dishes, no computer, no facebook...nothing. Ugh.


10. Tim brought me extra doughnuts from his work. One morning, I was going to eat one, then decided against it b/c I had only eaten junk food the day before. He teased me and said, "If you don't eat it, then I will have to." He proceeded to put the doughnut in his mouth. I "freaked out" a little, and started to cry. :P WEIRD!


11. As soon as we found out I was pregnant, and as soon as the food-anxieties and whatever changes started to set in, I would tell Tim, "I just want the baby OUT of me!!"


12. Sometimes I would get so hungry (but would NOT want to eat anything) that I would tease Tim and say, "I'm eating the baby."


13. Sometimes I would obsess over getting something to eat (like Panda Express or Korean), and then we'd go get it, and it'd be totally gross! And now I don't want to eat them ever again. This also includes Strawberry Rhubarb Pie, Strawberry Yogurt, Frozen Fruit, Pistachio Jello, Korean, Japanese, Spaghetti, Pizza, Mission Burritos... on and on. Watch out, there's not going to be much left that I'm going to want to eat!


14. To make sure I got the nutrition I needed (along with the pre-natals from the doc), Tim bought me a ton of Ensures to drink. The Chocolate ones were good. The Vanilla ones were good. The Strawberry ones (Plus) were GROSS!


15. My stomach started getting slightly bigger...but Tim didn't believe me.


16. After eating, a nasty film is left over my tongue which also leaves a gross sour taste in my mouth. I finally brought a toothbrush and tongue scraper to work that helps alleviate that problem... but it still abounds. Yuck! This makes it harder to choose food to eat. (Any type of bread or cookie would leave the sour taste. So would apples. And cereal. And certain chips.)
17. Sleeping has become slightly uncomfortable. Perhaps it's because I'm sleeping for longer periods of time (my back gets sore).

I'll have to see if there's anything else to add... otherwise, this seems like a long-enough list. :)